i've been with my therapist now for almost 15 years after some starts and stops with other professionals during my 20s/30s. Besides 'fit' i also needed to fight through some moments where I considered stopping for various reasons, but decided that my journey needed continuity and some giving up of control in marking 'progress' over short time periods.
i also did tried a few therapists when i was going through an existential crisis. i intuitively felt no one can really understand me because words can only convey a limited bandwidth of meaning. that was when i found ayahuasca and i intuitively felt that was the answer. and from the very first ceremony, she brought me back to feel like a kid again (the curious, wondrous energy that a kid has to perceive the world).
a friend told me a beautiful analogy of climbing a mountain (spiritual top). psychedelics like ayahuasca is taking a helicopter to get to the top (shortcut to get there) and once you seen the possibility then it's up to you to do the hard work to learn you climb up yourself through yoga and meditation as a daily practice.
Thanks for writing this and sharing your experience. I found it immensely relatable, I've had similar okay but not groundbreaking experiences with therapists and coaches (including on Lyra, lmao, and also including being told I don't need therapy) that I just assumed that's what therapy is. I also got the sense that there was probably someone out there who could do a better job with me individually, but didn't have the patience/effort/starting point to go looking that hard (especially without some sort of triggering event).
i've been with my therapist now for almost 15 years after some starts and stops with other professionals during my 20s/30s. Besides 'fit' i also needed to fight through some moments where I considered stopping for various reasons, but decided that my journey needed continuity and some giving up of control in marking 'progress' over short time periods.
i also did tried a few therapists when i was going through an existential crisis. i intuitively felt no one can really understand me because words can only convey a limited bandwidth of meaning. that was when i found ayahuasca and i intuitively felt that was the answer. and from the very first ceremony, she brought me back to feel like a kid again (the curious, wondrous energy that a kid has to perceive the world).
a friend told me a beautiful analogy of climbing a mountain (spiritual top). psychedelics like ayahuasca is taking a helicopter to get to the top (shortcut to get there) and once you seen the possibility then it's up to you to do the hard work to learn you climb up yourself through yoga and meditation as a daily practice.
Thanks for writing this and sharing your experience. I found it immensely relatable, I've had similar okay but not groundbreaking experiences with therapists and coaches (including on Lyra, lmao, and also including being told I don't need therapy) that I just assumed that's what therapy is. I also got the sense that there was probably someone out there who could do a better job with me individually, but didn't have the patience/effort/starting point to go looking that hard (especially without some sort of triggering event).